What I can Only Admit to Myself

So as I was making Noah's bed, I got to thinking, why am I so closed off from the world? Lol ironic since I have a public blog huh? Well there are some things that I just don't tell people or even my husband. See, I'm one of those people that care A LOT about what people think. So here it goes:

-I get dressed every morning based on what OTHER people are going to think about my clothes
-I have a problem going to the bathroom in public, or even when my husband is home... lol I know...
-After SD left, I didn't want my son, now I can't live without him
-Most days I really don't feel like getting out of bed
-I enjoy my time alone
-I'm still trying to figure out who I am
-Occasionally I get the urge to go back to school
-I eat an entire package of Oreos everytime he leaves
-Battleship is my fave game because I ACTUALLY like to sink his ship
-It upsets me when my Dad tries to run my life, which he is still trying now that I'm married and have a son
-It upsets me that I am a compulsive liar... and I have no idea why I lie... I have no reason to... I lied to William one time about hitting a dog with our brand new Jeep... lol IT WAS FUNNY OK

So Noah and I went to Wal Mart today, and bought some groceries. After we got home, I discovered that the fridge had gave up on me. I had to call maintenance for the millionth time. Finally I got a good guy, and he explained to me the problem. Now that it's finally Friday I have no idea what we are going to do the rest of the weekend. William is talking about us taking a vacation when he gets home. I have no idea what that is about. But a vacation would be nice...