Epilepsy...

I am a 23 year old mom to a 2 year old, and I am a Navy Wife. I also suffer from Epilepsy. I was first diagnosed back in 2005. The story goes a lot like this. I was sitting in my Computer II class doing my class work, and all day long I hadn't really felt like myself, and all of a sudden I passed out. Or what I thought was passing out. When I woke up, I was in the nurses office and she was asking me a MILLION questions that I couldn't answer because I had temporary amnesia. When I asked her what happened she said the word, grand mal seizure. Which at the time, I hadn't a clue what the hell that was, but was scared out of my mind and began to cry and ask for my mom. About 6 months later, and a ridiculous Doctor in our hometown, we got a diagnosis of Epilepsy.

When I thought we weren't getting anywhere with this Doctor I took it upon myself to get a new one. When we started going to the new Doctor things improved. I got to a point where I was seizure free for almost 2-3 years. Then of course I got pregnant which put a kink in things. After Noah was born though we got back on the right track and I was seizure free again. You would think that having a baby would cause me to have seizures... not so with me. It wasn't until our big move up here that I started having seizures again.

My main reasons for having seizures these days are lack of sleep and stress. And the last few days have been all of that. No sleep because of the neighbor's dog, stress because of the Navy and my family... sometimes I just wish I could run away. The last time I had a big 'outbreak' like this I was with SD and he knew exactly what to do. And I'm not saying William doesn't... well he doesn't. In fact, I think all this scares him to the point that he doesn't want to touch me. I'm not back having grand mal seizures, I've always had 3 different kinds, grand mal, petite mal, and auras. The past few days have just been filled with auras and petite mal seizures. And petite mal seizures just look like muscle spasms, I could have one and you would never know what it was.

The hardest part about all this, I'm going through it alone. We are working with the Navy and working the Navy system to get the best resources we can for me for when William is gone. This is just a scary feeling...